Thursday, February 21, 2008
I've been thinking about Melbourne alot lately.
Like how excited I am to start another chapter of my life in a foreign city..
but also how scared I am at the same time, you know?
I have never been a very brave person.
I remember when i was young and my mum brought me to Mc Donald's..
I couldn't finish my fries so she told me to go over to the counter and ask for a plastic bag..
I was about 8?
Yeah, i didn't dare do it..
SO CHICKEN RIGHT!!
I somehow got it into my head that the lady behind the counter would either ignore me, or worse! Scream at me for not finishing my food.
"YOU STUPID LITTLE GIRL!! REGULAR FRIES ALSO CANNOT FINISH?? SEE YOUR FAT TUMMY ALSO KNOW YOU EAT ALOT ALREADY LA!! NO, I WILL NOT GIVE YOU A PLASTIC BAG. NOW SHUT UP AND EAT YOUR FOOD!"
or something like that..
*pecks at corn* puk puk puk puk puuukkkkk!
thankfully, i now dare to speak to strangers..and i can order my food over a counter.. yay!
but there are other things in life that i'm still very chicken about..
like argueing with someone older than me.
someone not related to me through blood ties..
someone like demon lecturer, joseph foo.
i disagree with the way he talks to us, his students..
he expects so much from us but treats us like dog poop..
he's better this term though..
but last term, he was HORRIBLE!!
i dreaded his class..it was a bad bad way to start the weekend..
i didn't like the way he yelled at us and told us we were stupid and useless and all things smelly..
if you want people to respect you, you have to GIVE them respect first, am i right?!
he CLEARLY doesn't believe this.
so suffering to study under him!!
when i found out that he was going to teach us this term as well, i almost quit my diploma ok! cannot tahan already!
BUT i hate confrontation (must be the malaysian in me) and i felt that if i argued with him, he would just keep coming up with sharper comebacks until i weep with the sorrow of a thousand crows..
see..not brave at all..
if i were jia ling, i would have no problem speaking up for myself..
oh jia ling..how i envy your confidence..
would you be my bodyguard?
you should be my translator..
YEAH!! i can see it now..
i say something "Sammie-nice" and u translate it into what my heart truly wants to say but my mouth won't obey..
like for example :
Someone disses something i'm proud of..
Sammie-nice : Oh, that's okay..I'm happy with what I have done..thank you for being honest..
Translator : WHAT?!!!! You don't know talent when it knocks u up and makes u pregnant!! You should be so LUCKY to be standing in MY GLORIOUS PRESENCE! NOW BOW TO ME,HERMIT!!!
yeah..that'd be nice..
anyway, what was i talking about?
oh yeah..Melbourne and how excited i am..
Royce mentioned that he was quite stressed for the last couple of days because he couldn't find a place to stay and was afraid that he would have to settle for a smelly room with shared bathroom..EGAD THE HORRORS!!
and then today, everything worked out like it always does in Royceland..
He met 5 very nice people and they had a room available..SO LUCKY!!
he even has his own bathroom..HEAVEN!!
and all these things happened after he talked to me....hmmm...coincidence? :p
*hugs to Royce*
i miss u!!
i'm glad everything turned out well..
when i come to Melbourne, u'd better have a bed waiting for me! *snicker*
okay..i'm tired now and i don't know what i'm babbling about also..
i'll probably read this tomorrow and laugh.. :)
you are ALL special.
SHOUTOUT TO TAMMY TEE FOONG VERN WHO HAS ASKED ME TO UPADTE!! I LOVE YOUUU!!!! :)
Relationships aren't perfect..
Ours definitely isn't..
There are arguments, disappointments and lots of tears in the past..
and no doubt in the future too..
Of course there are good times, amazing times and unforgettable times too..
I am in this till the end, baby.
I only want us..